I did that

I don’t blame you for the things I never had

I get frustrated you don’t always appreciate 

The life necessities I was forced to relish

Which I know is wrong, it confuses me

I get upset, not at you,

Not at the things I give freely;

Love, stability, safety, empowerment

For being things I had to learn to create on my own,

I am upset no one thought to offer me these things

I am JUST NOW learning I deserved them all along

They aren’t gifts, they are tools to prepare a child

For a life that is fulfilled, happy, and stable

Not everyone one is launched into adulthood

Having to build everything from the ground up. 

I get frustrated that I was offered scraps,

And to rejoice in the benevolence of my parents

And that concept lodged in my brain.

I learned to be thankful for the bare minimum. 

I am thankful you will never feel

That you have been treated so poorly that

Basic humanity should feel to you like a gift. 

You will never doubt that you are worthy of love.

I healed myself to be able to give you more than I was given,

I did that.

-Nicole Smith, Momoetry